by Avril Bries
No need now for feelings: I no longer cast nets into the oceans
of your eyes, knowing well
nothing is there for me
to obtain but salt, and I am tired
We lived sharing skin, not souls,
And you never learned how I loved
Without virtue but with honesty; instead I gave you lies
To let you sleep at night, while I lay soundless dreaming
Of desire like a piece of sun
Burning in my palms and mouth. Why, I wondered
Was betraying oneself’s emotions so impossible?
And then, though I know even the sky
Has an end, I found
Someone who made it—and I—infinite.
So look upon the city, the twinkling lights,
With each light a heart: search for mine
And extinguish it. I will not die
But live on, dark as solitude,
Or take a chance and give myself to the one I know
Will create a flame in me again.